Here's the thing...

I can still show you how handsome they are.

I have been working on a blog post, but before I post it, I thought I would explain why it has been so long since my last post.  It is not because I have nothing to say, or that I have been too busy.  I have written at least a dozen blog posts.  They have been funny, sad, and I think, relatable.  But you're going to have to take my word for it.  The thing is this...the boys are getting big and there is so much less I can share.  I think (hope, pray) that they will one day appreciate the stories that I have told about them up to this point.  They are now about to turn 9 and 12, they continue to be interesting and funny, giving me awesome material, I just can't use it.

If I told you some of our best stuff, they might end up in the news for divorcing me.  They would show the judge my blog, and she would bang her gavel and grant their divorce from me. Then she would  order me to pay for  therapy, for the rest of my life.

There have been conversations about deodorant, body hair, girls, mean kids, and how dogs have puppies without even being married.  There have been moments of profound sadness as they begin to understand the depth of what was lost in Ethiopia.  We have talked a lot about race and belonging, fitting in and standing out, and what it really means to be a family.  First crushes have been revealed.  I have answered questions about boob jobs, finances, the elderly, and why you absolutely must not believe everything that you hear on the school bus, especially if it makes you feel kind of weird inside.

I have answered the question, "What exactly is sex?" by using my hands as visual aides.  They may never look at my pointer finger the same way.  I know I don't.  I wish I could have a do over.

So, I hope that explains my absence.  I will continue to blog.  There is still a lot to share.  Just know that if weeks on end go by, and you haven't heard from is not because my life suddenly got boring.